I am ranting again....... I swear this feeling sucks........
6days without your text is making me feeling rubbish , thinking wild.
What more can I say ? I am tired of feeling this way ..................
Okay, I should just bottle up my feelings . Who cares anyway . I find myself being
so paranoid nowadays . I am so silly , so damn silly to actually think that you care .
HA HA HA . sounds funny right . I think so. I have to admit that I am missing you day by day.
Fug, what am I supposed to do now ? wait and wait .......... People around me is asking me
to give up some are telling me how stupid I am to even wait for someone . Okay , fine .
So whose gonna find someone like him for me ? Who ? Nobody will. Cause there's only 1 him .
I swear I was very happy when we get back into contact. But at times I do wonder, was it
a good thing or a bad one .... I feel like laughing at myself. We are just friends and why the fug
should I care so much . I should just sleep and stop posting rubbish . k bye.
Why are you so selfish ..... always thinking about yourself . What about me......
I hate it when my friends have to asked you out for the sake of me . Why can't you take
the first move ? Why always me ? I am trying my best to keep our conversation .
What about you ? Are you putting in any effort ? Must I make it very obvious that I still , do ,
love you ? I am wondering , why am I determined to hold on . 5 months ....
Everything you do , everything you say , and every expression you make is tattooed on my mind.
I AM SELF-PITYING MYSELF. WOW.